I can read!!!

This just made me smile! Today as soon as Bronson got off the bus and into my office he said, "mommy, I have homework and guess what, I can read!". I remember hearing these same words 5 years ago from Braxton. Bronson was so excited to get his book, All Wet, out and read it to me. And if I remember right this was the same book Braxton read first when he was in Kindergarten.

I was so proud of him! He did such a great job! I just loved seeing the excitement in his eyes when he said he could read and then when he read it to me!

Windy

I've always been told I am windy, but I didn't know I was this windy!

This weekend is the Antique fair in Memphis. Braxton's ball team is setting up shop and trying to raise money for their traveling ball team next year. They are having a pop bottle toss, duck pond and sno cones. So today on my lunch hour I blew up 84 bats! and only 4 or 5 of them didn't stay up. I blew these all up in less than an hour! Aren't I awesome?!?! Not really, the air compressor is awesome:)

So now my van smells like a big fat rubbery baseball bat! and look at how full it is!

Isn't that red baseball cooler neat? I got this so we could fill it up with water and put the ducks in there to float around. I hope it works! But the problem is, we don't have the ducks yet! Whatever happened to little miss organization?

So if you are in Memphis anytime from Thurs-Sat, stop by the STIXX tent and help them out.

discouraged

.........this is how i have been feeling lately.

do you ever have those days/weeks/months where you just are feeling down, sad, angry, not loved, etc........

well that is the funk i am in right now.

i don't get along with my kids, mostly my oldest one. which really upsets me. i say i am going to try harder and be a better parent, but i don't. so i just keep on yelling and hurting him and myself in the process.

my house is a mess! and I. DON'T. CARE!!!!!! and if you know me well enough, you know something is wrong when i could care less about my house being clean. do you see anyone doing anything about it? nope, not even me! i have started a project and then just left it out in the middle of it, b/c I. DON'T. CARE!!!!

i fee like i have let the Lord down. i haven't been attending church like i like to b/c of being out of town and being lazy. i didn't want this to happen. i want to grow closer to the Lord, not further away. i feel like an idiot when it comes to knowing the Bible. i want to learn it, but do you see me sitting down and reading it? nope!

you know how you have those friends you are close to and then you wonder, what happened? we used to talk everyday or do something every chance we could. but then life changes and your kids require more of you or something changes for whatever reason and then you don't talk like you used to or go and do anything. i am feeling this way right now. and i have no reason to! i have great friends! i love my friends! so why am i feeling sorry for myself? i have no idea!!!

so i don't know if i just need to sit down and have a big fat cry and get over it OR if i need a night out with a friend/s to hang out, talk, shop or cry (or all of the above). b/c we all know that our husbands just don't understand these issues.

and i could go on and on, b/c i have lots of issues (dumb ones) right now, but i won't bore you. i just needed to type it out and see what my deal was! (and b/c shonya was on my case to do a post, but i am sure this isn't quite what she was looking for.)

and as i sit here and type about poor pitiful me, i think, 'there are so many people worse off then me and i am sitting here whining!' so i am sorry guys. please forgive me for whining.

i am tired of feeling this way and really need to get over it and get on with my life!

on a good note: my husband and i are doing great! i haven't felt this way for him in a long time. i have always "loved" him but it just seems like these past few years i haven't been "in love" with him. but i am now:)

our kids sleep in their own beds so every night when we go to bed we lay there and talk about our day and whatever is on our mind. it is so nice. and to think we could have been doing this years ago!! i am loving it!

First day of school

Today was Bronson's first day of Kindergarten and Braxton's first day of 5th grade. I just can't believe how time flies!!!

I was a big girl and didn't cry:)

Bronson was sooooo excited and Braxton, he really wasn't too excited.

Braylon was sad! He really wanted to go to school too. The last picture is of him watching his brothers leave.

Meet the new addition

Benson Ray Heeren entered the world at 3:14 a.m., weighing 7 lbs 14 ounces and was 21 inches long. He is perfect!!!

Amanda was awesome and had a great labor and delivery. She pushed for, at the max, 20 minutes. It was thru 5 contractions!!! She had some great coaches, Matt, her mom and her baby sister. I was so proud of her!

Here are Matt and Amanda after she got her epidural and right before little Benson was born.
Check out that little pouty face. They say he gets that from his mom:)

Isn't he just precious?!

Amanda looking beautiful as always! and just think this was RIGHT after she gave birth!

Mommy and Daddy giving Benson lots of love!

One big happy family!

Congrats to Matt and Amanda!

I love you guys!

AMANDA!

amanda is at the hosptial as i type!

her water broke around 6 and she is not having any major contractions. if she doesn't do something on her own then they will start the pit. she has to have it by 6 tomorrow!

so this new little one knew that i was leaving and wanted to arrive before i left:)

i was leaving football practice tonight and only had enough gas to get me 23 miles. i thought "oh i will just get it in the morning." and then i thought "what if amanda goes into labor in the night i won't want to get gas" so, i went and got it! good thing:)

i am getting ready to pack the boys stuff for the next couple of days and then i am headed to kv.

i will be back in the morning to see the boys off to their first day of school and then probably get cleaned up and head back down there.


so please say a prayer tonight for amanda, matt and the baby!

i will update when i can!

ps: here are our guesses for the new babes~
Jared~ girl
Bree~ boy
Braxton~ boy
Bronson~ girl
Braylon~ girl

weekend getaway

we are headed out after work to lake of the ozarks with vance and andrea.

we are taking NO KIDS!

oh, i love my kids, but won't it be nice to:
not have to get up and get a child a drink,
not have to figure out what each kid wants to eat at a restaurant and then only have 5 seconds to figure out what you want b/c the waitress is ready to take your order,
don't have to listen to fighting in the van,
don't have to hear how much longer every other minute,
don't have to be doing something E.V.E.R.Y. S.I.N.G.L.E M.I.N.U.T.E.!

won't it be great to:
sit by the pool and relax,
take a boat ride and not have to worry about a kid going overboard,
only have to get up and get myself something to drink, when i want to!,
be able to actually look at a menu,
ride in a peaceful van,
and just hang out with great friends and have no agenda!

that's what i am talking about!!!

have a great weekend, i am sure we will:)