i am crying me a river

thank you to everyone that commented on my last post.

roxanne and andrea hit the nail on the head!!!!

we are busy, we don't spend the quality time with him like we do/have with the other two, we don't drop whatever it is we are mad at him about and on and on and on.....

i read those two comments and i cried and cried some more.

i IM andrea and talked a little more with her.

i needed to hear what they said. it isn't something a parent likes to hear, but needs to hear. it didn't make me mad at all, if anything it made me grateful to have such good friends that point out the problem whether it will hurt the other person or not. it didn't hurt me that they pointed out the obvious, what hurts is that i didn't see it!

so starting today i am going to take andrea's advice and sit down with jared and talk this out with him and hopefully we can start a new plan. instead of us blaming the other we will hopefully start working with each other and come up with a new plan. it is going to take some sacrifices on our end but if that is what it is going to take, then i am all for it.

i got this email this morning too. of all the days that i would get and email like this, today was the day i needed it. i think God was talking to me too.....

*Just for this morning, I am going to step over the laundry, and pick you up and take you to the park to play.
*Just for this morning, I will leave the dishes in the sink, and let you teach me how to put that puzzle of yours together..
*Just for this afternoon, I will unplug the telephone and keep the computer off, and sit with you in the backyard and blow bubbles.
*Just for this afternoon, I will not yell once, not even a tiny grumble when you scream and whine for the ice cream truck and I will buy you one if he comes by.
*Just for this afternoon, I won't worry about what you are going to be when you grow up, or second guess every decision I have made where you are concerned.
*Just for this afternoon, I will let you help me bake cookies, and I won't stand over you trying to fix them.
*Just for this afternoon, I will take us to McDonald's and buy us both a Happy Meal so you can have both toys.
*Just for this evening, I will hold you in my arms and tell you a story about how you were born and how much I love you.
*Just for this evening, I will let you splash in the tub and not get angry.
*Just for this evening, I will let you stay up late while we sit on the porch and count all the stars. *Just for this evening, I will snuggle beside you for hours, and miss my favorite TV shows.
*Just for this evening when I run my finger through your hair as you pray, I will simply be grateful that God has given me the greatest gift ever given.
*I will think about the mothers And fathers who are searching for their missing children, the mothers and fathers who are visiting their children's graves instead of their bedrooms, and mothers and fathers who are in hospital rooms watching their children suffer senselessly, and screaming inside that they can't handle it anymore.
*And when I kiss you good night I will hold you a little tighter, a little longer. It is then, that I will thank God for you, and ask Him for nothing, except one more day.............